Do you!

I have always been a huge Kanye fan. From way back when in 2003, when he released Through the wire. As a big fan of hip hop, I followed his story of how he was signed to the Roc, but involved in a nearly fatal car accident and came out rapping.

I was cheering for Kanye then, he could've given up, but he didn't.

Seemingly soon thereafter, the shenanigans started, with Kanye's outburst during the 2005 floods of New Orleans, Louisiana.

But the reality of the situation is that Kanye simply said what most people were sitting at home thinking. He was bold and courageous enough to express himself in a passionate manner. What good are those conversations when they are behind closed doors with our peers. And as the phrase goes, "Talk is cheap." We do a lot of talking as a society and rarely follow it up with ACTION.

A couple of years later, Kanye lost his mother. I could empathize with him as I cared for my ailing mother. My mother was my best friend and my rock. I swear I grieved with Kanye. My favorite bar in the song Put on (Young Jeezy ft Kanye West)

I lost the only girl in the world that knows me best

However, from my perspective, Kanye murdered the whole verse!

Since my mother's passing, I know cry when I hear that song. But once again, I felt him.

Two years later....

I can't front, I feel for Taylor, but we all know we were sitting at home once again, saying the EXACT same thing Kanye said.

I am in a very sincere place of introspection. I have been conditioned, as we all have for years and years and years. Don't show emotion. Don't do this, do that. This is appropriate, this is not. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if we were just left be? I often speak about my alter ego, The Fabulous Ms. Cat. She is simply a personification of who Heather wishes she was brave enough to be. She is the "Kanye" side of my personality. But to be honest, I love her! I loved her pink hair and her leotard. When I watched Runaway, I was INSPIRED. I was even amused by the interview with Sway...Kanye was himself...how dope is that? How freeing is that? However, when I asked people what they thought of the video..."He's too cocky." "He's Illuminati" WTH? Where'd y'all get that from? I think somewhere in the video, Selita makes a comment about how uncomfortable our society is with things/people that are different....with that being said, I think it takes a lot of courage, to simply be yourself...no holds barred.

Here's the link to the Sway interview.

I think Kanye may have been fortunate enough to have learned that it is okay to be who you are innately. You will forever be jacked up in life if you listen to society's standard of who are you, or should be...As my mother used to say "You can't please everybody all the time." It's so true, you'd drive yourself crazy. Kind of that opinions are like assholes type deal...The same people who ask not to be judged will be the first to judge you. Classic conditioning...it's so scary...My mother gave me structure, but also gave me room to be me, whenever I figured out what that meant. I appreciate her for that. I look at like Jay-z, reportedly he's Illuminati too. Why? Because he's extremely talented and paid? Cuz he came from Marcy, he has to be something not of this world to be successful? Same thing with Wayne and Nicki...people steady talking junk, but someone's buying the music! Why do people even care? I just don't listen to the people I don't like....I think that's simple enough....We find the most trivial reasons to not like someone, when all we are doing is exposing our own insecurities. But that's another blog...